So give me all your poison, and give me all your pills. Give me all your hopeless hearts to make me ill. You're running after something that you'd never kill. If this is what you want then fire at will.
Was sitting with Josh the other day and he said this to me, "Tif, something wrong? You just like sit there and switch to your emo mode. Just staring at something but not really staring at it." EMO MODE? I didn't know there was such a mode, but honestly, staring at something but not really staring= Stoning, not EMO Joshua Tan. HAHA!
Honestly, this word "emo" has become so overrated that you just don't wanna be associated with it. But can we help it, when we're all "I hate the world, and the world hates me" kind of teenagers. We've all been through at least some form of emotional trauma that we're just walking around with a sign on our foreheads which read, "I'm depressed, and it's cool!" ~smile *grins! NO, I mean ~black face and thick eyeliner. HAHA!
But down to the truth, that "feeling" does seriously suck to the core. It consumes your whole being and you just feel like puking all of it out. Out of your system. Just like Cherine said, " You just feel so 'nua' you wish you were unconscious."
Enough of all those sad/depressing/self-pitying vibes. Met Cherine at B&J's yesterday. We sat outside Macs eating 18 pieces of nuggets, drinking and talking. I really hope you're feeling better now Twin-O :D. Just don't give a damn about those losers. They don't have a life and are just trying to get some off you.
Now to serious stuff: Ever told yourself, enough is enough. I'm not gonna be played anymore. No more empty promises. No more pledges to loving someone for eternity. No more bullshit. Guard your heart so well that you've become devoid of any kind of emotion. I remember talking to Asiq about this. I told him ".... well that person would always be beautiful and perfect in your memories, and you'd always love them that way. Why change it and force yourself to love the person the way they are now?" and he said, "What's that man? Like hallucinations of love?" Serious anal asswipe! But I figured he got what I meant.
I can accept that we're going no where. But for one last time, let's go there.
P.S I love my sister so :D Only she knows what she has done for me and I'm grateful. Love you to bits sista!